What's in a name?

[a.f.held]

Well, it's always funny to uncover the secrets of nicknames... Honestly - I'm using this one for 15 years and never explained it to anyone. So you're the first ones
The whole nick is Alan Filip Held. Alan = I always loved this name, especially after meeting one unknown Alan under the Eiffel Tower in Paris, smoking some not-really-legal-stuff there and having fun. Then following our own ways again.. Filip = that's my real name, nice to meet you Held = at first, that's name of my favourite hanball player from childhood.. and at second, I've always had the feeling that I held something in the past what I'm not holding anymore. Just looking too much to the past probably...
I started to use this nick for publishing my literary works and got used to it somehow.. So, here am I.